face2I was 13 years old. Me and my mum had just moved into Walthamstow. I made one very close friend, we were together all of the time, so much so, that her mum wouldn’t let her go anywhere without me. Eventually she got a boyfriend. I was quite a late developer, so I wasn’t into boys like all my friends were. She wanted to be with him all the time, and in order for that to happen, I had to go with her to meet him, which didn’t bother me at all.

She decided that she wanted me to have a boyfriend too, so that I wouldn’t be such a gooseberry. I didn’t want a boyfriend, I was quite happy with playing my computer games and my piano. She asked her mum to ask my mum if I could go to a party with her, which I didn’t want to go to, but I wanted her to be able to go, so I went. When we arrived at the party, everyone was just leaving, I found it strange, but I didn’t think too much of it. Within 5 minutes, it was just me, her, her boyfriend, and her boyfriend’s best friend. I was a bit slow, and I didn’t really think anything of it.

All of a sudden, my friend said that her and her boyfriend were going upstairs. I said please don’t leave me. She replied ‘I can’t be with you all the time’. I didn’t know what to do. The boy whose house it was offered me a drink of alcohol. I took it because I didn’t know what else to do. I got drunk very quickly, and out of the blue, the boy said that I was being too loud and that I had to go into the garden. I just took his word for it, as silly as I was, and went with him.

When we got outside, he forced me to the ground and raped me, I was so scared, like I said, I was a really late developer, and I didn’t even know what had happened. While it was going on, I could hear a creaking noise like a window opening. I eventually looked up to see my friend and her boyfriend watching out the window. When we went back inside, my friend told me that I needed to go and have a wash, she didn’t say why, and I didn’t know either. We went home after that.